Diary of Addict’s Mother

I lost my beautiful daughter to this disease. I just want people to know she existed. She was taken from us 12-26-18. We miss her more than anything. She had just turned 20 on December 1st. She was a model, an artist and she was so more than her addiction.

🤔 I have read comments about addiction and I keep my mouth closed. I see uninformed posts regarding Narcan and I keep my mouth closed. I see horrible comments like ‘natural selection’ and ‘let them weed each other out’ and I keep my mouth closed. I’m not sure who people picture when they think of meth/heroin addicts, so, I’d like to introduce you to mine.

My meth/heroin addict weighed 7 lbs 11oz when she was born.

My meth/heroin addict collected snow globes loved anime and manga.

My meth/heroin addict cried because her dad missed her birthdays and Christmas.

My meth/heroin addict held her baby brothers the first time and was in awe.

My meth/heroin addict was in school plays and excelled in art she even won a scholarship.

My meth/heroin addict became a model she was my child I feared the least for knowing her future was bright and she would succeed in anything she set her mind on.

My meth/heroin addict helped me try to find her mentally ill brother when he would runaway.

My meth/heroin addict threatened to beat up a kid bigger than her for picking on her brother.

My meth/heroin addict always noticed if I changed my hair got my nails done or did my eyebrows.

My meth/heroin addict was in accelerated classes in high school.

My meth/heroin addict cried because she was broken and didn’t know what to do to help herself.

My meth/heroin addict believes in aliens and ghosts and I think that’s awesome.

My meth/heroin addict never hangs up the phone without telling me I love you momma!

My meth/heroin addict apologizes when she can’t control her addiction.

My meth/heroin addict fights so freaking hard to stay clean.

My meth/heroin addict is loved by so many people.

So, maybe we should all remember, whatever state they’re in today, there is a mom somewhere, with knees bleeding from prayers, that just wants her baby back. Maybe instead of judging, we say a prayer. Maybe we become a bit more educated and help raise funds to help recovery facilities become more successful. Maybe we contact our lawmakers and request more useful laws concerning addiction, concerning rehab facilities and concerning what happens when they are incarcerated. We are losing an entire generation to this horrible disease. Maybe we use compassion instead of disdain.

Maybe we try to remember that every meth/heroin addict is someone’s child.

~Janet Wilson Johnson

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